Op.21 No.6

Another entry before May ends. Lacking of inspirations to write. Read a few blogs and it seems to me people are writing their daily events, activities, what they did, what happened to them etc on their blogs. Ain't it boring ? I'm not saying what I wrote here are great entries. What's new in life ? Everyday, when I pick up something new, my thinkings contradicted. New sets of concepts comes in. Putting oneself in predicament. Despite all those theories, I have become sentient. Confused now right ? Differentiation solves predicament. For me, now, I will take in whatever the general says. I will observe, not comment. When, or if, I found fake personalities, fuck up characters, untruthfulness etc, I will shun away from these people. I won't even confront them, nor ask them the reason. Don't wanna waste my time on them and just let them be. Of course those who are worthy I will speak up. No, I'm not saying my personality is the best in the world. It's just that I have seen too much. Really too much. Everything is just a cycle. Was feeling heaty internally, am not agitated. Feverish perhaps ? Finally found a suitable music for the mood now and for this entry. Simply love it regardless of mood. Deep, yet grandeur. The rich sawing double-basses, mellifluous layered woodwind, echoing horns and resplendent cadences infiltrates my ears........

Recommended music : JS Bach-Stokowski Passacaglia and Fugue in C Minor BWV 582

Op.21 No.5

It's the second quarter of 2006. One of my juniors asked me how to forget a person ? I replied her that it's all in her mindset. Actually, in everything we do, we can control our mind to do it or not. I used to be an emotional person. Do things according to feelings. Doesn't really care about the consequences. Now, I'm more of a rational type. I think calmly before I act. Yes, the emotional part is still in me. It is how well you can suppress it. Someone used to ask, are artistic personnels eccentric ? Depends, I would say. I myself is still trying to seek the truth. I dwell in the past before, I learnt, I know. If you choose not to let go, keep harping on it, life will be tough. Life is not all about boyfriends and girlfriends. Love, is a complex thing to understand. There is no definition of right and wrong in it. Take a look on the bright side. Try learning some things you never done before. There are ways and means to unleash your feelings. Think of a solution, instead of drowning yourself with it. Remember, the grass is always greener on the other side. It's true. Level up your life experiences. It's all in yourself.

"Could I embody and unbosom now
That which is most within me, - could I wreak
My thoughts upon expression, and thus throw
Soul, heart, mind, passion, feelings, strong or weak,
All that I would have sought, and all I seek,
Bear, know, feel, and yet breathe - into one word,
And that one word were Lightning, I would speak;
But as it is, I live and die unheard,
With a most voiceless thought, sheathing it as a sword."

Recommended music : Franz Liszt Vallée d'Obermann from Années de Pèlerinage, Première Année - Suisse