Op.21 No.3

A new entry for this month. Late March, I was on medical leave for one week due to eye infection. Main reason was caused by contact lens. Allergy perhaps ? Decided to rest my eyes and wear glasses. While resting at home, I watched a movie which was showed some time last year. "Alfie" is the title. After watching the show, I had some thoughts. Somehow or rather, I felt part of my life experiences are reflected in the show. Of course, I'm not that charming, exaggerating, ostentatious and highly skilled to handle all kinds of ladies out there. But I must admit, I've seen various different kind of characteristic. I was pondering about one of my ability to see what's lying in front when I'm in a story. I don't know whether is it due to my experiences, my observation, or my sixth sense. Even when I'm not hearing her voice, seeing her face to face; from text messages I can read what's going on. I'm not bragging or showing off myself here. I'm wondering, am I being over sensitive ? Paranoia ? One of my most accurate prediction, or should I say premonition, happened back in 01/01/2004. I've known her for a year before we hit off. After the first three months, crossing over to the new year, I had a feeling that once she graduated, sooner or later the story will end. Bingo. It came true. The story ended mid November 2004. It was a good ending, I must say. Mutual understanding. I feel that the greatest hurt in a story is not what another party had done to hurt or upset you. It's when you realised you have let someone who was truly good to you down, and you have lost him/her. Your conscience hits and starts blaming yourself. It's like cutting your heart deep that will be scarred forever. Trust me, it really hurts. When you hate someone, it's not as painful as you hate yourself. Do think it over for a while......................................................

Recommended song : Can't Cry Hard Enough by Robertson Brothers