Op.13 No.8

2006 is arriving. Another new year, another new journey. There were ups and downs for the month of December. A feeling from 14 years ago was re-kindled. A pity the absence of chemistry, though I did notice and sensed too. The least, I tried. No regrets. This year's Christmas for me was kinda pathetique. No celebration. Just chilled out with my ex air force mates. Reached home at 0000 hrs sharp. Two of my friends did ask me out but I declined. Since I'm not driving, it's useless to hang out aimlessly. Though they claimed two of their Korean friends are joining. Which makes me the odd one out. In the early part of December, I did enjoy the Christmas mood; by watching "The Nutcracker" dvd, performed by Kirov Ballet. A musical ballet written by Peter Tchaikovsky. The story was set in a snowy season. A Christmas fairy tale. I watched alone at home. Yes, the feeling of hoping someone is there watching with me surfaced, but that was the past, and none at present. The first time I watched was back in August 2004, which my ex bought the dvd. After the our story ended, I tried looking for it as I know the whole orchestrated music at my fingertips. I was delighted when I found it in stores again. It's really a fantastic show piece. During mid December, two middle-aged ladies came to my work place. One of them played Debussy's Bruyères, a piece from Preludes pour piano book 2. Ah, when I heard the very first bar played, I was transported back to 2001; the first time I came to know this piece. After she played, my mind automatically played out the next piece, La fille aux cheveux de lin (The girl with the flaxen hair) inside me. These two preludes makes me feel like I'm looking back my footsteps which I travelled. A bit dreamy, yet calm and peaceful. Impressionism. That's what Debussy's music were. La fille aux cheveux de lin, which was heard in Long Vacation, and Clair de lune are few of the famous pieces from Debussy. When I played them, there's really a feeling of dreamy sweetness. Sometimes, I really wonder am I an introvert or extrovert ? Or just a complexed person ? What's in deep of me ? When presentation differs from realism................

Recommended music : Claude Debussy La fille aux cheveux de lin & Bruyères from Preludes pour Piano Books I & II

Op.13 No.7

I've been lazy again. Actually should say not motivated to write any entries. Lacking of inspiration. Well, for the past few weeks, I enjoyed myself, work and teach. Seems kind of lifeless. Routines. Intrigued by Bruckner's 4th and 9th symphony. Trying to understand them. With this 2 symphonies occupying me, makes my routined daily life filled. Immersed myself immensely into the symphonies. But the 9th is a real tough one. A very in depth piece of work. Deep volume of melodies, mostly scored for the woodwind and brass family. It's not a piece suitable for late nights. Was browsing and came across my friend's blog. After reading, I felt same sentiments. Yeah, the world is getting tough. Natural disasters, terrorism. Why ? Is it because we are being ruled by technology ? Technological deification ? Or is it because it's Nature's way to maintain the population ? I would say, it's our very own human nature. Human minds are powerful. Technologies are developed to aid and improve our daily lifestyle. Call it civilization. But the residual effects are destroying God's creation. Yet, human minds consist of very individual personal thoughts. Each and everyone of us thinking differently. This is where greed, selfishness and the hunger for power comes in. When technology falls into wrong hands, it becomes terrorism. This becomes human self destruction. Think about it, if one day, you have the power to change, what will you do ?

Recommended music : Anton Bruckner Symphony in E-flat Major No.4 "Romantic"