Op.13 No.5

Another day has passed. Was on msn with my cousin and he told me he is buying "Long Vacation" box set. A sudden adrenalin burst in me and I was ransacking my drawer for the piano scores. I found the piece "Close To You". That was years ago after watching the drama, I transcripted myself note by note. Luckily it's still well-kept. Though mixed amongst other scores. The music sure bring memories. Sometimes I really wonder am I an emotive, nostalgic person. Looking up into the sky, images of the past is re-enacting in my mind. I think this is very unhealthy. I should be thinking of the future. But then, my friends thought I'm a frivolous person. Maybe is the way I present myself, the way I speak when I'm with them. For I feel that since out chilling with friends, might as well let my hair down. Crack jokes, talk nonsense, laughing out etc......Maybe my jokes too lame and I feel they have an impression that I ain't a serious person. What's weird is, some actually take it seriously when I joke for fun. And when I'm with the opposite sex, at times, I find myself play possum. I'm very unpredictable. I have too many principles. Yet, I find it hard to balance them with my feelings and life. I admit to defeats, grew tired, yet, I believe if you never try, you will never know. Perhaps that's how a musician life should be ? I'm not sure. I feel like going into seclusion, exile. But sometimes I'm afraid of boredom. I will just wait, on long vacation. Till the right one appears and exemplary services will be rendered. Like a wise adviser to the king.................
Funny ? Perhaps................

Recommended music : Close To You (Piano piece from Long Vacation)